Another setback

So my appointment Saturday revealed that it's not PCOS, I'm not ovulating, and I have old, dead follicles hanging out inside me. Then, a quick scan of my cervical mucas showed some dead sperm as well as some barely moving sperm. We may have a double whammy issue. But, until they get in and check out my husband's soldiers, they can't say for sure. He is supposed to go in tomorrow, but the way he's acting tonight makes me think he's going to "forget." I feel like I'm alone in my quest to have kids, and that's not the best way to bring children in the world. He says he wants them and that this is important to him, but his actions show otherwise. I guess it's important to him if he doesn't have to get up early or ruin the amount of sex he gets to have in a weekend. I'm really at a loss for emotions and words right now. I'm tired, but can't sleep. I cry in the car when I'm alone. I just never thought I'd be the one who can't have kids. At any rate, I need to get to bed. Tomorrow's a long day between class and school and fighting to get my husband awake in the morning to go to an appointment he doesn't want to go to.

Needless to say I am feeling a lot down.